March 11, 2004.

That's the date when I first joined deviantart, on this very account.

Jesus christ.

For all the years I've been here, I've done some pretty immature crap. I used to type like the people that I hate. I used to use smilies after every sentence. I used to trace things, copy things, and use other people's ideas. I used to so be such a moron. The things I posted, well, they were crap! Now, whenever I draw anything, I frown, crumple it up, and throw it in the garbage. Why? Because I can never be happy with anything I do.

Now I'm wondering if I should start using this account again. After hopping from account to account, I never really was happy, you know? There was no point in my getting a subscription because I didn't use it. When I used to post here, I used to have confidence. I thought I was great. I was proud of what I did. After all, I was only 10 years old.

But as I started working harder at my style, started to improve, my confidence wore down. If I ever posted anything, I'd delete it soon after. Now, I can't even bother to finish a picture. It's hard to explain.

Now, I'm 13. I've only really stayed in contact with one person over the years (Yes, you, Miss New Jersey) and, the people that really were my friends, I watched them. Yeah, I've been watching and reading all their journals, looking at all their pictures. But when it came to commenting, I've been too timid to do anything, too ashamed of the shit that I'd done.

So, if anyone bothered to read through that, I'm not saying anything. Just rambling, really. If anyone wants to get in contact:

AIM : Shivvtacular
MSN : Sweet_shinira@hotmail.com
YIM: Shivhan_bunneh

So, anyways... Hey. Maybe we could get to know eachother... again.